This will not be a normal blog post, but it has been weighing on my mind for some time now.
When I started this blog site, I knew it would really be an open diary. This diary would show my walk of faith, and maybe, if I’m lucky, help someone else along the way.
Some of the posts have been good and some not so good. That’s okay too, as I’m not a writer and I’m not paid to write on my personal blog. I also realize some people may or may not like what I have to say. That too, is okay. It is their right.
What I don’t like, is when someone goes around me and tells another person that my husband should be talked to about my blog.
My husband was advised that my blog is too real, and that if I continued to write it, it would hurt his prospects of being called to a church.
Okay, so let get something straight, this is MY blog. Yes, he does follow my blog, and if I’m conflicted about a post I will run it by him first. Secondly, I have never written anything that isn’t true to MY feelings, and MY search in finding GOD throughout my daily life. Thirdly, I have never written anything that accused someone or some organization of anything. Fourthly (is that even a word?), If a congregation is hiring me, than can chose to not hire me due to MY blog. However, churches are not hiring me!
I could totally understand if I was a “hell-raiser”, or Slamming GOD every chance I get. I could totally understand if I was saying hurtful mean things about our past, current or future churches or the people. I have never done that, nor will I.
Do I post my frustration with processes, ideas, life and expectations? Yes, I am human after all. However, in each of my post, I try to find GOD in the midst of whatever I’m going through. So I ask how that would affect my husband from being called to a Church.
If I cannot be real, than I’m a hypocrite, and maybe a church isn’t ready for me to admit I’m a sinner. After all they would then have to admit that they are sinners too.
So, now, with all that being said, Love the blog or not. I will not apologize for writing it. I thank each of you for reading it and for your opinions and comments. I thank GOD most of all for giving me the courage to continue to write, and to seek his guidance. I will always be a sinner, but it is by GOD’s grace that I’m forgiven.
1 John 1:9 NIV
9) If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.